First of Summer

• Finally have the time and laptop to post photos from Bal's birthday trip two weeks ago. It's real sweet of the boyfriend to let me use his laptop while I try to figure how to get a new one. I'm feeling a bit of Lindsay Lohan in that movie Just My Luck. I can't control some of the things that are happening but I can control how I feel with the situation. 

• We had our first bike ride on this trip. You can read about it here or you can click here for his blog entry. Shameless plugging is never shameless and he writes way better than me. SRSLY!

• We not only had our first bike ride but we also had our first cliff diving. A couple that jumps off the cliff together stays together. I've tried cliff diving two or three years ago in Siargao and Bal has done it so many times. I think his first was in Siquijor. I was afraid at first cause I have this fear of drowning and I just recently knew how to swim with Bal's help nonetheless. Well he just made me jump off the cliff. I trust him that much. Obviously I'm still alive and blogging. 

• Mangodlong Paradise, the resort where we stayed at has balls for rent. It's not really for rent but it's free for all theirs guests. The other resorts in Camotes rents their balls per hour. That doesn't seem to sound right. Anyway, we used the volleyball to play some beach football. I said some football cause it's not the same level of play when watching Champions league. We're even better. Haha!

• I usually sleep over in the boyfriend's house when we decide to do our own marathons or when he teaches me how to bike and other stuff. While I was sleeping, I caught him stealing a kiss from me. I didn't wake up although I wanted to. I waited for him to do it again and he did. Life's little pleasures. =) 

photos by Bal and Me

Is It Sunny Where You Are?

Lately the city is gloomy but it was extremely sunny when these photos were taken. I'm charcoal and I know it. Hands down to the boyfriend cause it was his birthday but he loves me enough to take my photos. I secretly know how he slightly dislikes the part where I ask him to take photos of my narcissistic self. Especially when I ask him to do it again and again. Death by narcissism. I didn't want to be bossy on his birthday. After all, it's his day. There's this unwritten rule about birthdays. You have this sort of supremacy and immunity but after 24hrs you lose the privilege. But with Bal, it goes beyond birthdays.

photos by my boyfriend Bal.

Like I'm Made Of Paper

The top I'm wearing was bought five years ago. My first dibs with the first pay and yes, it still fits. I bought it from Plains & Prints and too bad the structure and beauty of the blouse is not captured by my point and shoot. If you look closely, it has puffed sleeves and a Peter Pan collar. It hugs the body tightly as well. It looks better in person, really. It's like a smaller/updated version of the terno. I have not worn a terno my entire life. But I've seen them, of course. I've decided to pair the top with my skinny jeans and it really lives up to the word, it made me look even more skinny. If not frail or pale. Wow. I'm rhyming. To finish the look, I took my green pumps for some spin. I've had it not too long ago but only got to wear it once. They look deadly. They are deadly. My feet is now starting to complain when I wear cigarette heels and the like. Must be because of the amount of time I spend wearing flats. Ah, the things we do for fashion! I'm absolutely in awe with Victoria Beckham. I wonder how she manage to wear those Louboutins 24/7.

top: plains & prints | pants: penshoppe | green pumps: H&M bought from Eden V

photos by my sister, Liezyl

With Reckless Abandon

I am no expert when it comes to cycling or anything related to it. I just watch other guys or girls crash and break their bones. I am learning AND I am trying. Not the crashing and the breaking of the bones part, alright.

Growing up, I was more exposed to running. It's easy. It's cheap.There was no need for me to balance my body like when you mount a bike. With running, I did not have to exert a lot of effort with mind and body coordination. I just made sure I have more than enough speed and endurance. It's not a very technical sport unlike football- something I've also tried. But I suck at it. Big time. I was supposed to talk about cycling;I just digressed. I sometimes do that. There may be instances when I use my mind while I'm on the track or on the road thinking how to outrun the person ahead of me; or how to finish first on sprint relays or the mid distanced 400m dash. Looking back at the kind of training I had in high school, I can barely believehow I survived it all. It made me appreciate athletes more. They're very disciplined individuals. Ehem. Ehem. I'm just coughing. 

Life is a race. If not a competition. It always is, always has been. Everybody wants to get to the finish line before anyone else does. Even on my way home from work, the driver always wants to get ahead and pick up more passengers than the other drivers. They have to in order to keep heads above water. With running or any sport that requires discipline, we train hard to win if not (to) finish the race. There's always a goal. Everything is always moving. Nothing is at rest. I do not know where this is heading so I will stop and pause. This is the good thing about blogging- you can control what you say but you can't control what people would say about you. I don't really care at all. Life's like that. You can't change it. I don't think anyone really cares to read this blog so I just write what I like and I like what I write.

Just two weeks ago, Bal Marsius and I were in Camotes Island to celebrate his birthday. We stayed in Mangodlong Paradise Resort and there's been a lot of  progress since the last time we were there. The resort has a lot of amenities and it's the perfect place to chill. You can just let go, forget all about your worries and be a bum. They had folding bikes for rent at only 100php for the entire day. It's cheap if you ask me. We had our first bike ride and it made me really happy. Not because we rode together but finally, I was able to go the distance. I was so proud of myself. It's not hardcore if you're some bike enthusiast or self proclaimed expert and you got lost in this blog. It's never too late for anything. Forgive me if that sounds cliche. But I was just too damn happy! There weren't any big industrial trucks or fucked-up drivers like the ones you see in the big city. We had the road to ourselves and we went off track. As always, I prefer going down versus going up. Maybe because I love the idea of falling. I imagined being on the edge of a cliff with both hands on the side and free falling. That's close to what I feel when riding downhill. You just let go. With reckless abandon. It's scary yet risky but it's totally worth it and fun!

I fell off the bike. Good thing I did not suffer any major bruise. Otherwise, I might have hated myself. But those will be battle scars. No pain, no gain.

photos of me are by my boyfriend, Bal Marsius.

Head Over Feet

High waist pants are my outfit of choice and they're easy to pull off. There's enough room for my legs to move around unlike wearing skin tight jeans. In fact, I've been wearing them pants almost every week. Not that I'm no outfit repeater but it's good to have variety with your daily outfit. The only complain I have when wearing them is when I'm eating and the occasional bathroom breaks. I'm pretty sure I've mentioned it before and I tell you, it really takes a lot of effort. This is not the kind of pants you'd wear when you're eating out with friends. I end up adjusting the belt or eating less. I'm no person who eat less cause I'm a girl with big appetite. That's based on my experience, though. You don't have to take my word for it. 

On a different note, I don't know why I keep explaining about my blog title. What is with me, really? I'm  listening to Alanis Morissette and this song is stuck in my head for days. I miss her music. Totally grew up listening to her. 

shirt: bench | high waist pants: philosophy | bag: parisian | shoes: prima donna | belt: sm

photos by my sister Liezyl

Peter Pan

The week long absence from work did me something good and something bad. There's always two sides of a coin, right?  I miss bumming around but I just can't bum around. I'm no Paris Hilton. There are bills to pay, shoes to buy and a bike to build. There's a lot of times when we want something but we just can't have it. That's how life is. There's these three things: time, energy and money. Sometimes we got all the money but we have zero time and zero energy or we have all the energy but no time and money. I'd rather have all the problems and money. But you know I'm being sarcastic and I just want to say it out loud. If in case you're missing the point. I can't seem to have all three. There's no pause button and every thing is moving so fast I'm afraid I couldn't keep up. My days are filled with a lot of work stuff and backlogs. Makes me wish I'm Peter Pan, the boy who never grew up. I'm not growing vertically but I wouldn't want it any other way. I meant with the blessings but not about me being vertically challenged. I should stop ranting and be more grateful instead. There are a lot of opportunities coming my way and this does not happen to anyone on any given day. I will love my work more. *COUGHS* 

As with the title, I couldn't think of any so I just settled for the obvious. I'm also crazy with wearing bandage skirts lately. It's like a girdle to me.

peter pan collared top: wagw | bandage skirt: SM | gold ballet flats: CMG | bag: Parisian

photos by my sister Liezyl

School Boy

When I'm running errands, I get things done when I slip on my worn out oxfords from Forever 21. They're easy to move around when you're downtown or some place else. Your feet don't hurt that much if you spend half of your day falling in line, walking around, catching your ride and whatever. These shoes have served me for less than a year and they're still as good as new. Like a virgin. Just kidding. Bought them July of '11 when I was in Manila for Incubus. Back then, we didn't have Forever 21 yet and it's totally unforgivable to miss their gigantic store when you're in the capital. But things have changed. It always does. They brought Forever 21 in Cebu and who knows how much money everyone has on their wallet. It's definitely one of my favorite store cause it's cheaper than any other retail brands and they have awesome spins from the latest trends. Not that I shop too much and besides, looking expensive is just a state of mind. 

I will not be Forever 21 but I can look like one. CHOS! =) 

shorts: Gap | shirt and belt: SM Department Store | Oxfords: F21

photos by Lex Lopez

Nasty Gal

I used to hate Mondays. But I don't see any reason why I should. It's the start of a new week. New possibilities and the beauty of uncertainty on a Monday. I won't lie. There are a lot of times when I wish everyday is Friday but we just can't have it all sometimes. Friday seemed like a good escape from the entire weekend. But you cannot outrun the things you don't really want to escape.

I would like to say sorry. I did promise I will be backtracking with your blogs but I didn't. I feel such a nasty person for saying something and not doing it anyway. I'm usually unapologetic but things and times have changed. I got busy with some stuff and I want to make sure I'm all healthy. I got sidelined with blogging and the rest when I got admitted in the hospital and it looks like I will be spending time there again. It's difficult to find the drive to blog when you suddenly went offline. 

But I'm slowly getting back on my feet. If only time would stop or freeze while I catch up with everyone. I would like to thank everyone who still visited this little blog even if I was not as active as I used to. Time just flies so fast in the inter-webs. As for the outfit, it's a bit reminiscent of Fall but you know it's Summer everyday in Cebu. 

blazer: bought online | shoes: wade | inner shirt: topshop | pants: bench 

photo by my sister, Liezyl